i swear i love you.

good.awsome.wonderful.great. you think youre doing great.
plop! and the again youre not.
thats how i feel.when i think im doing great,over the top. puff! someone comes up
and make me realize that i really wasnt.

sometimes i wish i could be what you think i am. soo i could have reasons.soO you wouldnt do this just because.

Ive cried myself to sleep over this boy. His rejections had knocked the hell out of me.He sees how weak i am when im around him and still he does it knowing that it hurts.

THe funny things is that no matter what he does, im always back to him. thats what piss me the most. The moment i have him in front of me, is right there where i forget about everything and just wanna be with him.

should i be mad at myself because of that¿?
i love him.thats for sure.

thE problem is..

yes.
the problem is that no matter how hard i try, i cant get over it.
i dont want it to be over. everyone is tellin me that im not doing the right thing.
that we shouldnt be together. and lots of stuff. and theyre really hurting.

Im Trying really hard not to cry over you, because every tear is just one more reminder that i dont know how to let you go..

I wish life was like a fairytale, instead of these non-stop disasters that never want to end, and im always im the middle of those. It feels like while everyone is out in the sum, im drowning here under the rain.

I apologize to the ones that always been here for me and keep telling me whats best and i never listen.. listen me now. its not that easy, plop! get over him! .. ok.. boom. im over him. its not like that.

One of the toughest things in life is deciding when to give up and when to try harder.

im confused now.